Why I Am I So Scared to Fall Inlove Again

By Melissa Ritter, Ph.D.

In Western culture, falling in love is considered "The Happy Affair"—2 people find each other and the story ends, the curtain drops, the credits roll. The bug of loneliness, desire, and attachment accept been solved. This is a deeply satisfying narrative, just as many of us experience in our actual lives, it is oft less straightforward. To fall in dearest requires usa to recognize powerful feelings of longing, which can render us emotionally exposed and scared.

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Longing and Wanting

The discussion "longing" conveys the feeling of intense want for the other's presence, attention, trunk—as of them. The venerable and subversive Maurice Sendak precisely articulated this lusty combination of enthusiastic, driven wanting: "I'll eat y'all upwards, I love you lot then!"

When we run across someone to whom nosotros reply intensely—and to whom we are drawn physically, emotionally, intellectually, or (jackpot!) all three—our protective shell is punctured. "Cupid'southward arrow" represents love'southward abrupt, unanticipated, somewhat painful penetration of one's self, a self advisedly prepared "to run across the faces that you meet," every bit T. S. Eliot described our veneered presentations, crafted to facilitate polish interpersonal engagement and minimize vulnerability to others.

Longing and wanting erode our psychic skin by submitting us to uncertain outcomes, and possibly agonizing hurting. For instance, our loving, longing, and wanting may non be reciprocated. Impediments might present themselves, such as altitude, religion, and marital status, too as more internal complications within a couple, like ambivalence, insecurity, and worries virtually intimacy.

There are no guarantees romantic love will "work out."

What's at Stake

Heartbreak is a formidable threat. It is non uncommon for people to get to cracking lengths to avert the torment of a cleaved heart. For example, some avert engaging as well securely with any romantic partner or remain in deadened relationships. Others consider romantic love to exist airheaded, irrational, fleeting, a waste of energy, or merely for the young. This is understandable; heartbreak can be utterly devastating. Still, nosotros are wired for love and it'south non easy to escape, as it appears ubiquitously in movies, songs, books, theater (and online posts).

Despite our self-protective measures, though, we still often end up desperately longing for that irresistible someone. It is absolutely terrifying, but too exhilarating, vivid, and, from my perspective, the indicate of information technology all.

Love Isn't Always Easy to Feel

A female patient in her thirties with whom I have worked for some years recently acknowledged that she is dating a man with whom she is in beloved. Her announcement, all the same, was muted, pained, and non without regret, given that she has had some catastrophically painful previous relationships. I met it similarly. Withal, with this angst is consciously best-selling pleasure. Nosotros could withstand the inevitable uncertainty and potential for suffering aslope the recognition that something extraordinary and singular had arrived in her life, and for that, we both felt joy.

A male patient debating a separate from his current young man subsequently having met a man by whom he was "thunderstruck" (this being the most accurate metaphor for the irrefutable force with which his feelings of wanting saturated his beingness) plant himself sobbing uncontrollably as the new relationship unfolded. He confided to me that he had never wanted some other person then fiercely. He worried this man would non want him, it would cease badly, and his life was unraveling. The unruly potency of the feelings left him incoherent, dislocated, and overcome.

We spoke at length almost the means in which his earlier history had not permitted such expansive expression. It was frightening, only he also felt more awake and more than open up to possibility than ever before. His suffering was not an indication that anything was psychologically amiss: He was in honey and he was scared.

Reason Is Not the Solution

None of us wants to lose our (imagined) authority over our emotions. Falling in love reminds us that "reason"—the misguided foundation of self-help book advice aimed at restraining romantic love—is largely irrelevant to many aspects of our emotional lives. Falling in love is scary, and must be reckoned with, not rejected, denied, or parsed into tidy lists in which nosotros detect relief from doubtfulness. Fear, chance, and pain are office of the territory—as are joy, wonder, and transcendence.

We must feel our way into information technology the all-time we can, understanding that being scared is part of being alive. The fullest range of emotions offers the fullest life.

Melissa Ritter, Ph.D., is a psychologist-psychoanalyst practicing in New York City. She is a Supervisor and Faculty at The William Alanson White Found, equally well as Co-Editor of this blog, Gimmicky Psychoanalysis in Action.

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